Things would be so much better if I were skinnier, I truly believe that. You know the saying "money can't buy you happiness"? Well it sort of does, it can buy you things, that will bring joy. If I had money I could buy myself a treadmill, and with other working out, I'd be skinny and skinny = happiness. And it's not even the fact of being thin that makes you happy, it's so much more than that! If I was skinny...
-I wouldn't feel so ashamed and embarrassed in public.
-I wouldn't be afraid to do public sports and running around with fear of people judging your fat jiggling around.
-I would make more friends because I wouldn't be so concerned with my weight and afraid they're judging me.
-I could focus on more important things like: grades, family, friends.
-I would have so many more boys to choose from because more would want me when I'm thin.
-I would be able to actually enjoy life, and be truly happy like I was before grade 5.
I just know I would be happier if I was skinny. I just know it! And I'm willing to do anything. I just want to be thin so much!
So my WINTER PLAN is this: Since my mom refuses to get a treadmill, even after I offered to pay for it a pleaded... I guess I will have to suck it up and take my dog for walks in the cold. As long as it's not a blizzard. Yes, in my boots, freezing my ass off, in snow, I will walk my ass off! If I want to be thin, I will just have to suck it up. But no running... in boots that's too difficult and I don't want my fat jiggling around too much. I am also going to keep away from any snacks, it will be difficult since in winter I usually hibernate, but I will do it! I'll just remind myself of my dance costume for this year (bright pink short shorts, and a black hoodie- some sluts in my class picked them, I couldn't object since I wasn't there) everytime I reach for something junky. I am also going to talk to my dad about taking me to his work's workout place. I would be okay with that because if there are any people, they will only be adults, and I'm ok with that. I'll also get my dad to take my skating some more because it's a great exercise for balance and strengthening the legs. Other than that and going to dance, there's not much I can do. Oh and the rugby team at my school! It starts sometime in january, don't know when it runs until though. (Oh and of course sit ups, push ups, lunges, squats, stretching, jumping jacks, and other exercises like that, for strenghtening and such.)
My SPRING PLAN is: Continue walking the dog, but more frequently. Also be outside jumping rope. And in the mornings, like really early, I'm going to go for runs. At least if it's super early no one will see me right? I'm going to also get my dad to play H.O.R.S.E with me (that's a basketball game for those who don't know) because although it doesn't burn much, the slight jumping helps, and it'd be fun to do with my dad. As well as I'm going to force my dad to go on walks with me (he needs to lose weight too). And hopefully by then I will have lost a bit of weight, so I will feel more comfortable with a bit more exercise. And of course all my strengthening exercises. Springtime is crunch time because my dance recital is at the end of june, which I NEED to be skinny for. Even f I'm not super skinny, I need to be skinnier.
I can't give a summer plan, because depending on how well I follow through with my winter and spring plan, my summer might be different.
My stats-> height: 5"4 1/2
hw: 175
cw: 171 ?
lw: 145 (of which I remember caring about weight)
gw1: 151
gw2: 139
ugw: 119
However, I might stop at 130, depends on how I look, but I would love to be 119. It's just low enough that it's on the line of underweight and normal, it depends on the charts. So it's perfect! I want to be at least in the 140s for my recital. Preferably even lighter than that, but AT LEAST that.I just can't go on that stage looking like this, I just can't.
What are your plans for winter, weight wise?
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